Destructive love

Destructive love
By: Jose Oscar Roman – HFV Alumn

I am in a relationship of destruction and I am at peace with it.
I am not looking to escape this torture because this has become my norm.
I am in a continued nightmare from which I refuse to awaken from.

Give me pain, give me struggle my actions beg.
Give me discomfort and give me affliction my mind screams.
Give me all that is bad and all that is hate.

But why? Why do I desire all things that cause me anguish?
Why do I look for torment in a beautiful day?

I don’t know.
I don’t know why I treat myself in this manner.
I don’t know why I can’t seem to shake this pattern.

I know I can’t continue this way.
I know I must find an avenue to escape this trap.
I know I am destined for more as long as I finally let my soul smile.

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